Artificial Conception

For years I dreamt of your conception
Choosing at last to do it on my own
Then like a hopeful mother to be
Who takes the route of invetero over
The traditional... I
Chose every feature from the catalog I was given
I made sure you got the best so your chances were immense
For months I dreamt of how it would be
As I prepared for you and got your accessories
And all of the toys
Some custom made just for you
I read books galore to learn what to do
I priced furniture and set up you very own room
For days I waited anxiously for your arrival
Knowing that things might not run smoothly but that didn’t matter
I set up the space
Call up friends as back up
Waking up late at night prowling my home
Checking your room to ensure it was ready for your arrival
For hours I slaved away
The pains not registering
The result my only focus
Nearly broke down in tears a time or two
When it seemed like maybe my dream might not come true
I hoped that it would all be over soon and there you’d be
Ready for me to feed you and develop you into something supreme
Now you’re here and we’re almost inseparable
You’re my baby, my creation, my legacy so to speak
I dreamt you, I planned you, I made you unique
I can never teach you too much
You absorb all I can give and
Already your memory is far superior to mine
Thank goodness I
Spent so much money for that larger hard drive
Gosh, I love my computer

Phew!

Tell me how you love me
And how you think I’m sexy
Touch yourself when you see me
Tell me how you love my body
Stay warm and get out of the cold with me
I just want to hear you say it
Want to hold you, want to feel your touch
How do I breathe
Feels so different being here
Was used to being next to you
There’s no one to talk to
Starting over is so hard
I just had a wakeup call
Your love brought me to the light
Your heart’s where I lay my head
I ain’t trying to get in your jeans
Want to learn your ups and down
Your insecurities
I want to make you feel beautiful
Beautiful as poetry or look at me saying nothing at all
I want you to feel you are my focus
Don’t I tempt you
Slow and sexy maybe you should take control
What’s this game I want to play
You can’t get away
I only want to be with you
I can change your life
We’re going to do something tonight
Head rush from your touch
Want to but I can’t help it
I need it when I want it
You’ve become my addiction
Strung out on you
I’ve heard every line
When I’m next to you
I get the feeling that I’m willing to stay next to you
Show me how bad do you want and need it
You’re not listening
Step back make you work for it cause I don’t want to rush
I call on you for pleasure
I need a little bit more so do it to me
You’d do anything if I let you inside me
You go crazy when you see me
What are you looking for
It’s right on page 52
You know exactly what to do with this body of mine
When I’m with you I lose myself
I can’t wait to do things with you
Glass of wine candle light music made of quiet time
I’m feeling mellow
Honey my sweetie pie hear to lay me out
I’m wishing you were hereI’m in a sexy mood and only you can fit my needs
I’ll take care of it until you come to me
I get sensitive
You kisses have a poetry that makes me shaking in the knees
When you join in on the action I can hardly breathe
I want to touch you too
Please share my oooh
Tell me where to touch you
Wait don’t move I want to taste you too
How you touch kiss stroke it my love the way that you do
Don’t look now
Take of my shirt, undo the buttons
If I’ve got to beg for it on my knees and crawl
We’re going to be sexing all night

Scorned

Icy fingers of the wind crawls along her skin
Sitting there so calmly a part of the scenery
She longs to be in there with him
Content to perch and gaze within
Once upon a time it was her kissing him
Holding hands and laughing with him
Then along came the dream that he couldn’t resist
The barely legal teeny bopper for whom she was dismissed
Seventeen years craving a child
Eyes shimmering unshed, but yet she smiled
Just the thought and time as she sits and dwells
Anger, anger, and fury inside her swells
There’s no choice or question of what must be done
Plans now in motions actions never to be undone
She relishes the adrenaline rushing through her veins
Her hold on sanity/reality she hardly maintains
Half frozen not dead
Completely consumed in a haze of red
She stands aside watching the crazy lady take a shot
No self-awareness or fear of getting caught
No longer there, just a ghost of the former
Two silent perfect shots to the floozy and the charmer
No prints at all, no weapons there
Just a shattered window and icy despair
With no remembrance and a strong alibi
Life resumes for the scorned on a brand new high

Thank God for you, Mama

Fifteen Hundred miles away
I think about you everyday.
All the way across the world
Caught up in this country’s whirl
I know that I can count on you,
To keep me in your prayers.

From Monrovia to Keneta to Kamatahun to Koindu to Freetown to Chicago to St. Paul to where we each now reside, Mama, we know that we’re only a phone call or email away.

From married mother to single motherhood, you’ve been there by our sides. We wish we could be there today to cheer you on as you receive your award.

But since we cannot be there in the flesh
Your many other children will represent.

We don’t know how we managed to be so lucky to draw you when God dealt out the mother cards.

So we thank God for you, Mama.
From Kpehe and Jahma

2 Messages in One: Every other line or together

Your mug feels right up on a display
covered up in a disguise, on my favorite holiday
My dearest, my beloved, you've filched my heart,
my money and my ride, you light-fingered tart!
You are necessary to me please, for all eternity
that you somehow stop showing your face in my community
My love for you will last forever and never end
pending the arrival of this note that I’m about to send
You're my life's fortune set apart for me
by some atrocious, obnoxious being
I yearn for you equally night and day
to gather your luggage because you can’t stay!
My affections for you did never diminish,
the abhorrence, the malevolence, they didn’t just vanish.
Your flawless figure, smile and saunter
paled in comparison to you constant chatter
In issues of the mind and heart,
I can’t help but wonder
that if it’s about time I got that restraining order
I experienced the earth shift below my feet
Perhaps you ought not to have so much to eat
Sweetheart I'd carry you wherever
provided that I can desert you there

Once Upon A Time

There were you and I
I did the work and you let our relationship slide
I no longer want you for you hurt me so bad.
I know this is wrong and I should just end it, but I’ll do it my way
I wasted two years of my life to broken promises and false words of love
I want you to suffer like I did, but I don’t want any mess left behind
I won’t talk bullets cause I don’t know how to use a gun
I won’t try knives, don’t want a mess on my rug
I don’t want hire, someone else would just spill the beans
I can’t just file you missing, it might point back to me
I can’t use a pillow you might wake up and fight
I can’t make it falling you’re too darn elegant
I can’t mess with the brakes cause I might drive the car
I can’t do it in the house, you’re too heavy for me alone
I can’t say heart attack you’re too healthy for that, but
I can treat you to a nice final meal to a restaurant of your choice
I can make a trip to the restroom, timed just right
I can bump into our waiter before the food arrive
I can slip yours something you never would taste
I can make sure it’s some that can be peed away
I can rush you to the hospital as you take your last breaths
I can make it seem like I fear to lose you to death
I can cry at your funeral knowing I ended you.
I can finally be happy for now
There is just me.

Not Your Fault

It’s okay, it’s not your fault
If you don’t tell it’ll never halt.

I was there, where you are, before
Hurt at the hands of my favorite mentor.

It’s usually someone close, someone you all trust
You need to tell cause so others know of his lust.

It won’t be easy, he will cuss and will threaten
That monster will crumble when no other choice is given

Beware of the huggers, and squeezers and kissers
They even hide easier when all know they are fathers

He says that there’ll be hell to pay
If you slip and you tell that that would be the day

Don’t worry child it’s just a test,
To see if you fall in like the rest.

The trick is not to show him any fear
But stand up tall and say you won’t adhere.

Tell mom or dad or someone older
Cause after every little touch he will get bolder.

Don’t let it start, thinking the thoughts you can bury
Trust me, nothing’s worst then carrying with you the memory

I Love You Zealously

I love the way you brush your hair
I take the strands off the comb and brush.
I love the way your smile lights up my world
I have your missing toothbrush in my purse.
I love the way you dress yourself
I have a few of your shirts under my pillow.
I love the way you dance at the clubs
I let the other women enjoy the pleasure of you.
I love the way you like to kiss.
I saw you do it while making love.
I love the way you look when you sleep
I installed a camera by your bed.
I love the sound of your voice
I call you 10 times a day just to hear it on the machine.
I love the new car you just bought
I find it much easier to follow.
I love way you try to make me jealous
I’m sorry your last date drove off a cliff.
I love the way you have my name close to you
I wasn’t easy to tattoo on your arm that night.
I love your taste in breakfast food
I add something to your plate everyday.
I love that you care about what I do
I saw the cops leaving that you sent to check up on me.
I can’t get you off my mind and very soon
I’ll have you permanently in my home.
I love you zealously that’s why
I can’t, until death, stop watching you.

Grown Up Love

I’m the man, ain’t a kid no more
I’ve got grown women at my door
She told me I could be her special man
From these words our affair began
I tried telling ma she’s the woman of my dreams
Mama said, boy it’s not always like it seems
Mama asked me who was this mystery woman
I said, Ma, she’s no mystery, she’s Ms Johnson
You know the math teacher for my freshman year
“What is she stupid, there goes her career!”
But, Ma I do love her and I’m not a child
“Dumbass you a kid and you’re being defiled”
My friends think it’s awesome
And I’m not a victim
I love her, she loves me
She’s also having my baby
“I did not raise you to the age of fourteen
To hear that you’re in love with a sicko like Christine.”
Calm down, Ma let me tell you what makes me so sure
I’ll prove to you like she said, that I’m much more mature
“Don’t give me that
How did this start”?
It started all of a sudden like something from a fiction,
But the first day it happened was during detention.
She said choose detention or to get dismissed
The next thing I knew I was there being kissed.
She told me to kiss back it would be our secret
I was scared and I was shaking and thought I would vomit
But she reassured me and called me a trooper
And that’s when I knew she was more than my teacher.
She stripped me and licked me and loved me that day
“Boy please stop, and don’t tell me no more, Dante.”
Ma, I trust that you love me and won’t tell the police
Cause I know if they catch her, she’ll never see release.
This never has to be told you know it doesn’t
Think of how the story will cause you total embarrassment
“Dante, you’re my child and I know what’s best,
I’ll make a decision after the bloodtest”
Ma it’s now 6 months and my child is borne
If they take my Ms. Johnson, I will be torn.
Why can’t you understand?
That this was not planned
Know this, Ma, together she and I will not fail
Cause I’ll be here waiting when she gets back form jail.

Dear Amateur

Dear Amateur,
I’ve said that I don’t want a lying brotha, but if you’re going to lie at least try to do it better. It’s okay if you stay out late, however, to appease my suspicions answer the phone even when you’re on a date. From work to home only takes nine miles, so I know you weren’t at the office all day messing with files. You didn’t have a group meeting, the group was over here eating. The car didn’t run out of gas, I fill the tank up jackass. She wasn’t calling about work, you left your shirt there you jerk. When I go on travel, you barely wait to be unfaithful. I call you at home in the middle of the day, and you want me to call back before I approach the driveway. You complicate all your lies, if it was a contest you wouldn’t be getting a prize.

Just because you use a different name on your phone, you think you’re safe and your cover can’t get blown. Take it from me I teach Lying 101, I can come up with lies faster just ask me a question. Oh your boys don’t lie either, the loving I give them to tell me goes much further. Oops I guess I let it out, but did you think I’d sit home alone and pout? Incase you still don’t know what I’m trying to say, I want for us to go our separate way. It was fun while it lasted, but I’ve got a new sucker that I just landed.

Sincerely,
Professional

Chocolate

6 foot plus with baby soft hair
My heart beat so fast it almost give me a scare
Thick brows cover eyes that are so slightly slanted
The depth of brown I glimpsed inside is why I’m now tempted
I never thought that I would be a sucker for chocolate.
Strong jaw, prominent nose, full lips, strong chin
Believe me everything I’m thinking have got to be sin
Your shoulders, like boulders could hold up the world
I felt I was in heaven and waited as my toes uncurled.
Your shirt cannot hide the washboard you conceal
It only helps to enhance the emotions I feel.

Counting

6 days since we parted
I sat by the phone
Waiting to hear you voice so I wouldn’t feel alone.

144 hours since we spoke
I gave you all 4 of my numbers
And even the one for one of my neighbors.

8460 minutes ago, you sweet-talked me all through the night
I absorbed your whispered promises to call
While I’ve been waiting I’ve wanted to bawl.

518400 since you kissed me good night
A wrong number call came
And this man’s voice set me aflame.

Ring, Ring there goes the phone
I’ve been tired waiting
I’m with the new man I’m dating
To engrossed to even think of getting the phone

Ring, Ring aren’t you going to give up
I’m way too distracted
When he’s got my leg parted
I do believe it will no longer be possible to hookup.

Ring, Ring although he’s traveled elsewhere
And I’ve wonder what would have happened
If my crush on you had not deaden
Instead of answering your call, I’m much rather wash my hair.

An (Ex)Stalker’s Apology

Dear Ex,
I’m done with all the treatment now
I want you to know it’s alright to not love me now
It’s okay the voices they don’t come no more
It’s just the one telling me to love you no more
Incredibly, I don’t hold you accountable
In fact, I think you were quite commendable
Intentionally, I would always follow you
Instead, I now just pray for you
If by chance we do happen to meet anew
I’ll respect your space knowing what I put you through

Sincerely,
Me

P.S.
I’ll always be your Boo you know.

Could It

Could this be love
This tingling in my spine
The fluttering in my belly
The urge to smile wide

Could this be joy
This need to tell the world
Everything is a-okay
No need for sun cause I’m lighted up from inside

Could you be the one
That’s I’ve been waiting for all this time
That knows me better than I do
That shares my sorrows and joy

Could you be the lilt in my voice when I say “hi”
The bounce in my step when I walk down the hall
The reason every morning finds me with a smile
The end to loneliness as I’ve known life to be

Yes I think so
I believe I’ve found the silver lining in my cloud
The pot of gold at the rainbow’s end
The sun of my tomorrows and,
The home for my heart

Breaking Point

My rope’s about to snap
And I hope one end doesn’t lash you in the eyes
I’ve been dancing to your tune walking carefully with the beam
The weights you’ve placed on me these recent times eventually took its toll
You say I’m pretending
At least I face up to reality
I don’t live with a wall so high that I can’t see past my height
I push others away and just tolerate
People can sense when they’re not really wanted
When they’re on the outskirts of your realm of friends
We’re all great pretenders
But somewhere is always the truth
For how can you know pretend from true
If the person never told you the truth before

Ask Me

Do you know my story
Have you asked my side
Are do you simply judge me
On what you feel inside

Do you want to know me
Have you ever taken the time
Try not to just scold me
Subtly accusing me of a crime

Can I share my secrets
Will you tell your true friends
Should stay hiding in closets
Tell if that would make amends

What can I do to please you
Something I haven’t yet tried
Can’t showing that I love you
Evoke your compassionate side

I’m done jumping through hoops
I’m done playing games
I’m not the only one who dupes
So lash out and cast your blames

To My Guardian

My heart is yours if you're willing to mind it
I'll take care of yours if you're willing to spare it
My mind's consumed with images of our future
Of how I can see you as a permanent fixture
I know physically, we'll be great together
'Cause our minds, hearts and souls sync with one another
I don't mean to try your patience at all
I just don't want us to lose focus, crash and fall
Sometimes I find it hard to believe
That you love me and don't plan to leave
You're beautiful inside and out
This wait to meet you almost has me worn-out
I imagine the day Gazing into your eyes I'll say
That there's no way
That from you I could stray
I believe that God brought us as one
And with His help and guidance we shall one day be one.

Mon coeur, mon amour.
Je t'aime beaucoup.
Je ne comprends pas toute la ceci.
Mais je voudrais que tu sachiez que mon coeur est tu.

I Cried

I cried last night
Closed my eyes
Quiet sobs
Wished with all my might
Passing thoughts
Wasted dreams
Delayed 20-20 hindsight
Unknown triggers
Imagined terrors
Moon up high, far from daylight
Broken promises
Lonely existence
Hoping often for a knight
To save me
To love me
To save my heart form frostbite
Broken down
Prayed up highDarkness gone, remainder light.

Traveler Blues

On the road
I own a home
But am homeless
Forgot one shoe
I'm listless
Got no life
Wardrobe reduced to a suitcase
Have no friends
They're left behind
At home
With my things
With my stuff
With my life
Security checkpoint
My new home
Take out the computers
Take off you shoes
Your belt
Heck get naked
But still bring a pocket knife on the plane
What are they looking for
I digress
I tried an ad
To make some pals
Confusion cause disassociation
Friends of old have lives anew
Don't include me
Hampton Inn
Where I stay
Window shades drawn
Typing away
Homework and internet
That's my life

Letter to Mr. Potential

Dear Potential
I saw you at the movies/club/theater, etc
I was there with other females: my girlfriends, sisters, etc
I felt you looking my way and turned
I thought we had a connection, but the story got familiar only too soon.

I dont want to be your buddy, pal, sidekick, etc
Im applying for the position of your lover
I would be the perfect person to trust and talk to
I should be your champion and have your back
I await my chance to admire you from near and far
I want to be your friend

I dont want to be your sister and dont need another brother
Im not a stepping stone to one of my girls
Im not a messenger and you dont need to talk me up if you want her
I dont only want to be called when youre bored
I wont cook for you to take over and share with someone else
Im not your banker or bank account
I want to be your confidant.

I dont want a with-benefit type of friendship
I fail to see anything beneficiary for me in that relationship
I hurt when you come and go without warning
I was involve emotionally from the moment our eyes connected
I only express physically what I feel on all other levels combined
I want to be your only lover

Dont feel the need to befriend me if youre not interested in me.
Dont feel the need to explain yourself to me
Dont waste my time with niceties.
Dont say what you think I want to hear.
Dont expect me to cry about this either. Youre not my first buddy. I will go on.
Sincerely,
Missed Possibility

Love Online

I found love again online
The perfect mate who's cyberly all mine
But I don't want to meet you in sight
Why would I want to ruin something's that's just right
We have the perfect virtual fantasy dates and all
Sometimes makes me actually want to give you a call
We met a on a beautiful highspeed day at my place
On a popular site for everyone called Myspace
Through messages and comments we connected
And then got bold went to IM and chatted
Been like weeks, and you think you've seen my picture
But putting myself out like that is not my nature
I've triped hard and haven't even felt like cheating
There's been other messages I've been ignoring
I can't help it, you're my one and only
Yeah, for now, until reality gets lonely.

Stalker Tendencies?

She's a woman
An independent woman
An "I don't need a man to make me feel complete" sort of woman
She's well traveled and well spoken
She's secure in herself and knows her worth
She can get any man SHE chooses
She doesn't want a man she has to keep tabs on
She's not a stalker, but...

She's got some tendencies
Um...some say stalker tendencies
Really she does it for his own good, like...

Well if he doesn't answer the phone after 3 calls, 4 texts and 2 emails
She drives pass his house (if the car is there she looks for signs of life)
She drives by the job (he might be working late and service sucks there)
She drives pass his best friend's house (you know how guys don't want to seem whipped)
She calls aroundShe parks outside... (can you blame this poor woman?
She's worried he might be hurt.)

How can this be stalking?
Wouldn't you want to know your loved one is safe
She loves to spend time with him, like...

They planned a home date to watch some movies
Something important came up (said his mother was sick)
She drives pass his mother's but his car isn't there (totally out of concern)
She drives by his house (ha, seems to be life there)
She goes back home and calls, no answer (what if something's really wrong)
She dials 911 from the payphone and reports an emergency
She parks outside...(Who would have guessed the cops would barge in on a movie date)

Stalking tendencies? No! Total concern for him.
Didn't she give him chances?
She told him that minor issues does not a relationship break, like...

He told her she was sufficating him (She didn't know he fell asleep under her pillow.)
He told her he didn't want to see her any more (she made sure he was asleep when she entered)
He told her to give him back his keys (she made a copy and give it back)
He told her he had another girl (what does she have to do with them)
He told her he's been cheating (it's okay, you'll get it out of your system)
He got a restraining order
She parks outside...(within order limits)
(Gosh who would have thunk this relationship thing would be so complicated)

Don't be mad at me

Don't be mad at me
I don't mean to be me
I'm a pleaser, make believer, true pretender, you see
Trying to fit in, where I get in even when it's falsely
My heart is heavy
I feel dirty
The mirror's hanging not in pieces
But my reflection's of a shattered image
You don't like me
You just use me
Knowing I do what you tell me
If there's a chance that you could love me
There's a flaw in a pleaser's mindset
No one can please everyone
Giving pieces of yourself
Just to be tolerated
Will lead to feelings of prostitution
But bet the money last longer than the words they tell you
Dear Lord,
I pray you help me to find me
Forgive me for what I have and haven't done
Don't want to take no more wrong turns
Don't want to lose my friends
Don't want to be so many persons
Just want it all to end.

Say my name

He called me by her name today again
He did it asleep and didn't see my pain
Looked me in the eyes, asked me to join him for life
I said yes not knowing I was a substitute wife
In the thrios of passion, says I'm the only one
But never looks me in the eyes once the deed is done
I turn to my side, don't cry, but do pray
That true love for me will somehow come someday

He called me her name when we dressed to go out
Thought I didn't hear the slip cause his voice had dropped out
Never talks about her when coherent and sane
Only when unconscious, no control over his brain
He goes through the motions of the perfect mate
Kisses and hugs, even the occasional date
His friends double take said we could have been twins
That's when I realized the extend of his sins

He called me her name, my heart just died
It finally sunk in deep how much he lied
The promises, the vows meant nothing at all
For he would leave instantly if only she could call
I thought I could do this since she's been long gone
But her spirit is present and my love is all gone
Was scared of the future of being lonely
But now I need someone to love and see me.

Cliché Talk: My Crush

Oh Gosh, you must be as dense as a London fog
So I promise not to beat around the bush
For many times, I've been there, done that
So I'm letting you know that all bets are off
I don't want just any port in a storm
Please clue me in to your feelings
You can think I'm a glutton for punishment
But for once, I want my place in the sun
Do you feel me?
I know they say actions speak louder than words
But I'll be fine if we can just start with you dropping me a line
Ask me no questions and I'll tell you no lies
I don't always be a bridesmaid and never a the bride
All in due time I know you'll brush off the chip on your shoulder
I'm tired holding my breath so I thought you should know that
This is your wake-up call
I'm not looking for a one-night stand
Even if I don't kiss and tell
I have nothing up my sleeves
You have that certain je ne sais quoi
My love is blind and you are the object of my desire
I want to be your everything, your wet dream
Maybe one day we can join the mile high club
So just tell me now if it's your place or mine?

Just love me

You don't have to be …
You don't have to drive a …
You don't have to make …
You don't have to wear …
You just must love me

If you loved me you would be the perfect man
You would grow with me
You would compromise with me
You would believe in me
You would laugh with, cry with, and engage me
If you loved me you would respect me

I love you isn't just words to me
It's in the way that you talk
It's in the way that you treat me
It's in the way you respect our relationship
It's in the way that you remember me
I love you is your action more than anything to me

Loving me is the only criteria I seek
Material things can come and go
Physical beauty can fade with growth
Family and friends can support or test
Children grow up and leave the nest
Loving me and me loving you is all we need
It's not an easy feat you see
For obstacles and problems lie along the way
Though equally yoked we must be
Although it's the man's calling to lead
I hope you just start by loving me.

Independence Defined

I can stand on my own two feet
I make my own money
I own my own thing
I am not conceited
I am INDEPENDENT
Check out what that means to me


I am independent
No, it doesn't mean I
Don't need you. Because
Everyday that you're not in my life is a
Piercing pain in my heart.
Every woman needs to be loved and held and
Never has having money kept you company.
Despite what you've heard
Even the most self-sufficient woman
Needs a shoulder to cry on, a man to lead her and
Take charge, take care and Touch her.


I can be your everything
But you must look beneath this shield I've had to carry
And see the dependent woman I can be

Trading-In

It's so hard to say goodbye
But like the song, I must comply
You brought pleasure I can't deny
Since we first got together last July
But it's that time, the reverse of 'hi.'

At times you warm me, but can be so cold
There's never enough of you to hold
Although you never yell or ever scold
Sorry baby, you're just too old
So I just ordered a brand new mold.

It's not just cause your batteries expired
Your motors no longer work as wired
No longer do you hit the speeds required
Since I can't count on you, sorry you're fired
I'm trading you in for the new BOB I acquired.

Can I

Can I have you for breakfast?
Sausage with my pancakes
Or banana for my cereal

Can I have you for lunch?
Salami for my sandwich
Cucumber for salad

Can I have you for a snack?
Lollipop is my favorite
Popsicle can sometimes do the trick

Can I have you for dinner?
A nice thick juicy bratwurst with rice
Or a steamy mouth-watering carrot

Can I have you for dessert?
A hard dark chocolate candy bar
Or even a long firm biscotti cookie

I will give you some of my cherries
If you let me taste your pickle
You may have a bite of melon
If I can nibble on your almonds
It's a meal that must be shared
A lick here and sip there
You sample mine, I try yours
Can I have through the night

Denial

I lied
When I told I could get over you
I spied
When your car would go cruising down my block
I died
When they told me you chose her over me
I cried
When I saw your wedding announcements come
I tried
When my friends told me to move on
I denied
When you told me I would soon replace you
I replied
When I thought that’s what you wanted to hear
Now what I spied led to why I denied and replied.
If I hadn’t cried, lied and felt like I’d died inside.
I would have tried a little harder might have been your bride

Break up

It’s not you, it’s me
Bump that, it’s not me it’s him
You know, the one before you and he before him
Made those promises when all along there was a hidden agenda
The one that couldn’t take a minute to answer my phone calls
The one that lied and cheated and always had different numbers
So sorry if I break your heart this time
I’ve just got nothing in me
I could serve you platitudes
But I have much respect for you
I like knowing that I’m missed, but for how long
How long until you change
Make excuses and ignore me
Give me lines that I intake just feel less of a fool
How long until you decide that there are plenty of fish
To fill your greediness for two courses or more
With all the things out there to get
Forgive me if I try and protect myself
My body, my heart, my soul, my mind, my freedom
Because if I have go through another like he
I just might end up in jail

Wedding Vow

Don’t want to be your convenient girl
Don’t want to be your write 300 texts all day long instead of answer the phone when I call kind of girl
Don’t want to be your don’t call until Thursday night to ask for a Friday date kind of girl
Don’t want to be your text you once a week just to make sure you think I’m still interested kind of girl

Don’t want to be your she’s just my friend to others while you call me for benefits later kind of girl
Don’t want to be 2am booty call on the way from the club when you couldn’t get none kind of girl
Don’t want to be your freak in the sheets so that mean you can’t marry me kind of girl
Don’t want to be your pull out the toy and finish up cause you were too selfish to make sure I got mine kind of girl
Don’t want to be your fake it so we can get it over with kind of girl

Don’t want to be your spring fever, summer lover, fall over, disappear for the winter before she gets to attached and want Christmas present or Valentines kind of girl
Don’t want to be your why should we define things we can just kick and see where things goes kind of girl
Don’t want to be your stay in the relationship for 3 years and still ain’t met your kids or family kind of girl
Don’t want to be your if I was in the market for a wife I might consider you kind of girl
Don’t want to be your 3rd baby mama with no hope of support kind of girl

Don’t want to be your independent so that means I pay for the date kind of girl
Don’t want to be your lets chill at your house or my house so we can spend some time alone when you’re really not trying to take me out on a real date kind of girl
Don’t want to be your there to listen to your problems but when I need you, you’re never around kind of girl
Don’t want to be your pick you up for every date cause you don’t got a car or your is not working AGAIN kind of girl
Don’t want to be your hold down two jobs while you perfect your skills at ever videogame console kind of girl

Don’t want to be your pretend to be dumber or suck at stuff so I don’t hurt your ego kind of girl
Don’t want to be your keep my mouth shut because disagreeing leads to fights or shout matches kind of girl
Don’t want to be your call you 10 times or ride by your block just to keep you in check kind of girl
Don’t want to be your spend hours on myself to look good for you only for to look at the next girl while we on a date kind of girl
Don’t want to be your keep your voice down cause my friends don’t know about you kind of girl

I do want to be your lawfully wedded, vow and love offering wife in front of God and all kind of woman.
I do want to be a your there in sickness and health, for the good and the bad, to support, respect you, laugh and cry, and there till death do us part kind of woman.
I do want to be your freak when it’s right while mothering your children and holding the home down kind of woman.
I do want to be fantasy that shows up anywhere anytime and would do in your office like it ain’t nothing kind of woman.
I do want to all your best friend and everything you need so that you never take me for granted kind of woman.